frustration seeps in

geez...where should i even start? ok, im practically having 3 months holiday now. well, 2 months now to be exact. after the semester exams, i thought "Yay! Looking forward towards working and earning some money to get a new phone and some pocket money", later did i know that looking for a "seemingly-3 months job" is NOT fun or exciting i should say. when i came back to klang, went for job hunting in AEON shopping centre. was basically going into shops to ask for jobs and replying their vacancy postings. the most awkward part was to lie to them, yea, saying that i'll b working fulltime, when actually i'll work for these few months and then, cabut. that's the way you do it, according to mom. not really in my nature, but i guess i'm doing pretty good now, improved acting/masking skills :) but deep inside, still feel a little guilt there, but hah....its basic survival skills, in order to survive, someone has gotta sacrifice. too bad la.

anyways, applied for a few jobs and they said they will call me the next day. it got me so frustrated as they didn't call me the next day and i was practically deciding which job to take because there were few jobs that i can start straight away like in Kenny Rogers's and Delifrance. but their pay are kinda low, RM 3.50 per hour (underpaid). had to call up MOD to ask them as they said they'll call me but didn't, they said their boss will call me the next day and i have to go there straight away. i was like what the hell, i don't have a car, so what if dad's not at home, how am i going to JJ? blardy hell. but eventually got my ass there, earlier, before they even call me. after dim sum with vie and ong and justin, vie sent us thr, and that was the day that she'll be leaving, back to Aussie. 3 of us were walking around and i was looking out for jobs at the same time. just realized that i will take my chance to look for a job whenever i'm in JJ. kinda desperate, i guess. just remembered, 2 days before, my friends and i went for a chill out in greenbox. enjoyed ourselves so much. with kean leong there, things were so different. you should hear him sing first and prepare yourself to get tummy aches :p life is such a joy with friends by your side. ok, continue with my job hunting "expedition". so i went into haegen daaz and asked for the job. the supervisor asked me to fill in the form and so i did. after filling it, i sat there for like 1o-15 minutes waiting for him to interview me. guess what? i thought he was busy or something, serving the customers. but turns out to be that he was testing my patience. he was basically observing me. after a while, i asked the staff there and she said he does that to people who come for the job. i got kinda pissed and so i told the staff that if he's busy, i'll leave my details there and he can call me and i thought of telling him this also. but at that time, he was serving a customer. so i thought, "Hmm...nevermind, just be a little bit more patient", so i got back to my seat and waited for a few minutes. then, he finally came and sat opposite me, with his unsmiling face that i feel like punching, and he started browsing through the application form and asked me to describe myself. as i was waving my way through, as in figuring what to say, he suddenly just bud in and said that i cannot wait for the interview as in i was impatient, so i said straight away "It's not that i can't wait for the interview, but it's like you're taking my time. I still need to look for other jobs". so i supposed you know what he said. he said "OK then. You can go and look for another job". i said thank you and blah...who wants this job anyways. with supervisor like him, i guess i won't even last long and he thought that i was so desperate for this job when i have so many choices. after that, i went for Kenny Rogers's. the supervisor said i can start any time. took his number and said i'll call him because i needed to consider other jobs. yea, i asked for Timberland also. all put me into hold because they need to wait for the boss to approve, bla, bla...
i was kinda torn with choices. and it was all about timing. i thought that i'll take the job from the ones who call me first or those whom i can start my work soon.

so i started in SRS and after 2 days, i quit. not happy working there. maybe it's the people, maybe it's the work itself or maybe it's just myself. hahhhhh.....just made me so frus :( it was actually yesterday. so after i quit, went to Kenny Rogers's to ask whether they still need staff. the supervisor said yes and he was looking forward towards me working there. a sound of relief. ahhhhhh...... so i called mom up and told her that i quit and got a new job and that i needed to get black clothing as my uniform. after half an hour or so, she came to JJ and i met up with her. not long after that, i got a call from Brands Outlet. another interview. OMG. kinda got sick of interviews. and so i went. it all went well and the store exec asked when can i start. i was like, "Can i have your number? I may need to consider other jobs also". gee. but i can only start on 1st of march.

then, adding to my frustration, mom called this morning and said she came across a job vacancy near her office. a shipping company. she asked me to try out this one. so i called the company and talked to the person in-charge and she has arranged an interview for me tomorrow at 11 am. my work at Kenny Rogers's starts at 4pm.i have to call Brands Outlet to confirm with the job. all by tomorrow. hell, i'm having a headache now. so this is basically what i'll be doing tomorrow. go for the interview at 11am, see whether i get the job or not. if i get, then call BO and KR's, say sorry and decline their jobs. if i do not get the job, stick to KR's and decline BO.

i've come to realise that looking for a job is not an easy process, especially a full-time and permanent one. in my case, "permanent". it's definitely different from part-times.

all in all, just hope that i'll get a good job and work happily in these 2 months. and after that, just gotta put on a mask again and hopefully i'll get through it. but then again, that will be another story. just wait and see.

god bless all~